the wheel turns...

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A few days ago
I was sitting
on my bed
with my dog
and I thought
to myself
remember this
moment
because it is
perfect
and it will
not last.

It is that
understanding
that nothing
lasts forever
which allows
us to move
forward
and outward
into more
life.

Today
I lost
a friend
and the grief
is like water
flowing through
and around me
and just as
that moment
of perfect
peace
I knew would
flow through
and past me
so too
will this.

It is
the gift
of surrender
when we
have
no other
options
when the pain
is too much
and God
is our only
salvation.

Tonight
I will be
one with
my grief
allowing it
to flow down
and through me
cleansing me
leaving me
fresh
and ready
for the return
of peace

It is
the heartbeat
of humanity
I feel tonight
playing out
the dance
of life.

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For my friend Jack

I wonder
about time
and this life
running before me
like a river
wild and free
powerful
and unpredictable
asking how
can it mean anything
when every day
melts
into yesterday
revealing
tomorrow's dreams
as today's adventure.

my heart
has embraced
so many shining
breaths
of eternity
tearing me
open
and leaving me
raw
and broken
open
to the next embrace
crying
for the loss
of innocence
praying
for the wheel
to stop.

yet how
can sunlight
be held
in a fist of panic
how can a laugh
linger longer
even as the next breeze
takes it away
leaving only echoes
of happiness
memories unreliable
misty and vague
as time rolls on
the illusion
that I move through
this epic story.

glimpses
of beauty
heartbeats
of perfection
a gentle glance
a knowing smile
these are the threads
which weave
the tapestry I wear
about me
warming me now
on this clear cool
autumn eve
a cloak of memory
promise
of a warrior's dance
in humble wonder
of this miracle
called life.